A Great Way To Spend Your Time

Today was the best day ever!! I’d had a hard Thursday and today made up for it in every way! My ex decided that even though we’d broken up and not talked in over a month he wanted to talk about our relationship – it was like going through the break up all over again. My advice to anyone, use judgment when they ask you if you can go out again to “talk”. LOL!

Every Saturday I work at the Provo Utah temple. The Provo Temple just so happens to be one of the most busy temples. I work from 10:30 am to 4:00 pm. My first post was in the celestial room. I took the seat the previous sister on the other shift was on and decided to make the most of the very silent and almost empty celestial room. I said a prayer that I’d know what to do with myself since I was single and on my own.
“Single-hood-ness-ship” is the one time in your life you can become completely selfish. Well, I’m extremely selfish in that regard I think. So I wanted to know what I could do now so that I don’t feel that as much. Yes, I’m serving in the temple and it’s the best time I can think of that I’m almost completely unselfish. But that’s one day out of a week! What’s my purpose in life??!! I didn’t want to be selfish anymore. And at that moment I remembered something someone had said to me at work that at the time seemed completely out of line and rude. (She actually was later warned by our boss about her comments) She turned to me one morning and said she’d been praying and then found herself praying for me, that I would learn the things the Lord needed me to know so I could get married. Well that’s a good though, what do I need to know?

I left the celestial room pondering what I could do or what I needed to do to help myself progress into this next step. I’ve had many blessings it seems, most of the time unrelated to my crappy dating life, but the Lord somehow seems to know that I need encouragement. I’d been told my purpose was to learn the gospel and gain an in depth knowledge of it. Maybe that was just a thought… hmmm…

I walked downstairs to the initiatories where my answer found me. As I got to my post and opened the curtain to let the next sister in my eyes met the one woman I’d wished I could become “when I grew up”… Sister Susan Easton Black. For those of you who have read my previous posts or even know a little bit of me, she’s my gospel hero. There was my confirmation. I really need to learn the gospel, in depth. In a way that I never thought before. That was my answer.

I love the moments when Heavenly Father gives you the answers you need in ways you never thought he would. Sister Black has no idea that she was an answer! … But her presence was the emblem I needed to remember all that in my mind she stood for… spirit, devotion, and service… a strong, faithful woman of God. So my advice to those who are seeking answers, remember Heavenly Father will answer them in MANY different ways. Even in the presence of a person to spark a memory.

Belly Dancing and Other Things

Yesterday my friend Char asked me to make time in my schedule to go with her to the first Belly Dancing class offered at the Covey Art Center in Provo. It was an 8 week class but I could go to the first one for free to see if I liked it. I was a little nervous when we got there. I’ll admit, my number one pet-peeve is letting others watch me make a retard of myself. Or getting out of my comfort zone. Dancing is definitely one of my weak points. I feel stupid! Well I looked stupid. I kept over thinking each move and it just wasn’t working. So finally I just said to myself “Do what you can do, stop and watch if you get confused, then try.” Once I did that I started to get it. It’s interesting how over thinking the littlest things in life can throw you totally off. In my experience today it was dancing.

Hopefully I can keep taking more classes. I need something to occupy my time. I’m feeling rather lazy lately. My weight is stagnate, which irritates me. Time to change up the diet again and a new bit of exercise. The class is $50 for all 8 classes and $45 for 4. They’re every Wednesday at 6pm.

I’ve got to get myself ready for my institute class now. My friend Sarah and I oddly enough signed up for the same class – Dating & Courtship. Last time I took it (last year) I quit because some weird guy kept following me around the class, campus, and calling me… He was a nice guy, but I wasn’t interested… *Sigh* Hopefully now that I have a friend with me it’ll go better.

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11:40pm
I just got back from my institute class. Teacher is Brother Webber at the Orem Institute. AMAZING! So much fun! I can’t begin to describe how funny he is! Everyone go to his class!
Great people that I’ve met so far. I love going to institute.